I opened my eyes to a new morning.
I have nowhere to go but my spirit’s soaring.
No idea about what will happen today.
But I know there’s nothing that can cause dismay.
Good thoughts and nice flutter.
I feel the wind touching my face.
Such a very good feeling.
The air is my saving grace.
I feel most alive now.
With such a youthful drive.
I know life wouldn’t be easy.
But I don’t mind to strive.
I was never really an optimist
but it’s nice to be on for a change.
I don’t want to dwell on the bad
when positivitiy has an endless range.
A frustrated traveler. I think that’s what I can call myself. As a child, I have always dreamed of going around the world. I used to love reading about different counrties and cities and somehow I feel that I am travelling vicariously every time I read. I think I was about 10 when I memorized almost every single country and it’s capital. I was quite dreamer and I still am now.
There are a lot places that I want to go to but it was never the right time or I never had enough money. But It were up to me, I’d be definitely out there, travelling the world, learning languages, taking pictures and eating every native delicacies.
Now, It still isn’t the right time and I still don’t have the money to get me somewhere I want to be but I will not stop dreaming. Maybe someday, I’ll be able to go around the places that I want to be. I don’t really know how can I be able to do that, maybe I’ll win the lottery or maybe when I have someone else’s pay check or whatever but I know Icant give up on my dreams.
I can’t wait for the day that I’m sitting in the shore of a beach somewhere writing about how marvelous and surreal just looking and drowning of it’s natural beaty or the time when I am in a knee-deep snow and feeling so cold but still making my very first snowman. Or the time when I am in the middle of park where leaves are falling endlessly as wind is blowing them all around. Or the time I’m in a wonderful garden where every flowers bloom around me. I just cant wait to witness every unique majestic view of the different places I want to visit. I can’t wait to see first hand how enchant how every places speak of stories of people and structures and I can’t wait to write all about it.
Someday, hopefully I can. 🙂
I’ll be writing down the list of the places that I wan’t to visit on my next blog.
Looking inside and wanting to belong,
Curled up in bed with heart beating strong.
Closed lip sighs, another pain locked away.
Vows you want to make but it was never the right day.
Taking a leap, you have been waiting for so long.
Immense in a state where heart is breaking in the sun.
Opened up yourself and wishing him to stay.
But he was never in love, he just cared anyway.
You tell yourself it’s okay. You tried to give your best shot.
But you were never okay with the fact that he loves you not.
You chose to put on a face. So determined, so willing, so brave.
But unraveling the mask, you are trapped in loneliness’s grave.
Crackling sounds of thunder is not helping your case.
Falling is a kind of blunder and believing is such a waste.
You were on the brink of giving up the love you always want.
But just before you were to cut ends loose, he extended his hand.
He reached to you and suddenly you feel no reason to be sad.
Your heart skipped a beat and you swore it was the best day you ever had.
As what you have read in my previous entry, I have a lot of time to blog now because I was advised to take 7 days rest. So I’ve been having a lot of ME time since yesterday. I don’t have that much to do considering my surgical wound, I can’t really do anything that can cause physical strain so what I was doing is just basically bumming around the house watching “GRIMM” and watching youtube videos and then I realized that I haven’t listened to any boyband songs recently since I became a fan of emo, punk, alternative rock music. So I decided to just watch boyband music videos in youtube. It was really a surreal moment reminiscing the days when we were just so gaga about all the boy bands that seens to have too much testosterone to be put in one group.
So now I am writning about the top 5 boy bands with their songs that I think played a big part of every girl’s fantasy in the 90’s and earlt 2000’s..
5. Boyzone -Love me for a reason
I mean, seriously, what kind of girl wouldn’t be mesmerized with 5 men singing a song about asking a girl to love and to not play with their hearts. They are really adorable. I can not even forget the video of this song, 5 equally great looking guys with a candle-lit background singing about love, it’s like a paradise. and though I may not listen to these kind of songs often now but everytime I hear this song I knew, I loved them for a reason. Lol. 🙂 It’s great that these guys are having a comeback, too bad, Stephen is no longer around,but atleast the kids of this generation can get to know the band as well.
4. LF0- Summer Girls
Who can ever forget this 3 guys singing about summer and girls and just pure fun? Though Rich Cronin, already passed away. Everytime I think of summer I remember this song and I can’t help but smile. Somehow I think this song never gets old. Definitely something worthy to be the soundtrack of everyone’s summer.:)
3. N’sync- Drivie myself crazy
Yes. I think most people like N’sync best whne their doing their extremely difficult but nonetheless exceedingly brilliant dance routines. But I like ’em more when I heard this song. And I think the video is undoubtedly funny, I mean they all went crazy, literally. 🙂 I think its really cute. And this song, I think a lot of guys can relate to it, I can’t say I can personally but I think the theme of this song is something that can happen in reality, You know how a guy did something wrong and hurt the one he really loves and he can’t get a second chance with her. And I think tha Lance is incredibly hot in this video, I know he’s gay, but that doesn’t make him less hotter.
2. Westlife- When you’re looking like that
I don’t know about you guys but I have to say that out of all of their songs, this one is my Favorite. I mean its melody and lyrics plus the fact that Nicky Byrne is such a fox in this video makes me want to just watch and listen to this video all night long. 🙂 It has very catchy tune and I swear I have the words in my head and even the second voice. 🙂
1. Backstreet boys – All I have to give
I cannot say that I am a diehard BSB fan but I have to admit that I have a problem resisting Nick Carter’s charm from time to time. lol. Seriously. And this song and video ain’t helping me fix that problem. The lyrics and their smooth moves just makes me feel like I was 13 again. Hmmm.. These boys are just ever so talented and they have this kind of unique looks and distinctive voices that makes me want to ask themto kiss my problems all away. 🙂
Uh huh, so that’s about it. It is like a trip to memory lane. I feel a whole lot better after watching all these videos. I hope kids of this generation will take time in knowing the songs of this guys. 🙂
Not just half-awake but wide awake. I have always thought of writing a novel. And for few occasions, I started writing, but halfway through the intro, I always feel that I am not ready. I have no formal training in writng and I always end up doubting myself and thinking that It will be a waste of time. Now I realized that doubting myself is an awful way of wasting time. I should have continued writing those unfinished works. I would have had, give or take two sucky unpublished novels by now but nonetheless I could have used all the experience that I could have gain in order to improve my craft and write something better but I was so scared to fail and be bad at it that I chose not to continue writing.
But I know now that Writing is way too important to give up just like that.
It is time for me to write my first novel and I know it will not be easy.
And maybe I will fail to do so, but what is life without taking risk?
I will write because it makes me feel good and it is something that I want to be good at.And when are passionate about something, you just need not question your abilities and just do it. And if in time, I will fail to finish this novel, It is comforting to know that I tried.
But I am kinda hoping that I will finish it. So I better start writing now. 🙂
Yes. That’s one of the many curious questions that stays in my head. Few years ago, I was just an average to student battling sleep during class discussions. Trying to avoid making bad choices. Just merely trying to pass every subjects that I have at that moment.
Life was just simple then: Going to school, Acting like your listening, Answering exams, Being with your friends. But at that time, no one really thought of it as simple. At that time, I think it was already complicated. I used to worry about it not submitting the requirements, failing an exam or two, Not being able to answer in a recitation. Then it hit me, LIFE IS NEVER REALLY SIMPLE.
I just think of the past years is simple because I already survived it. I already made it through those complex years and all the worries I had then, is no longer a threat. And back then though, I had numerous uncertainties, I have one specific goal and that was to finish college one specific method called studying was all I needed to do to finish college. And so I did.
A few years later, Here I am. With one plain goal, that is to be somebody someday. That’s the hardest part.
Unlike being in school where all you need to do is to study and then you’re good to go.
Real life is different. There is no single plan that I can take in order for me to reach my goal, Even the goal, is vague itself. I mean, be somebody, it doesn’t necessarily mean that, I need to be a celebrity of some sort, although, that is kind of a plausible option as well. I just want to be able to express myself and show others that I am good at something. I wanted to touch people’s lives.
I know, I know. My explanation is not really that much help. But you see, we can never really explain our dreams and goals with our words. All we can do is try to come up with decent interpretation of what we want to achieve. I know, most of you have dreams that only you, yourself can understand. But when we achieved our goals, everything will make perfect sense.
And when the time comes that we achieved our goals, whatever that is. Then we wouldn’t have to explain it. Everyone around us will just know that we made it through the complexities of life. 🙂
It makes me wonder what pushed the brilliant author, T.H. White, to write those hauntingly painful words. It makes me want to ask him “Who broke your heart?”.
Well, I guess I will never know why he wrote those words. But I know why I can relate to it. It seems like an arrow was shot directly to my heart. There I go again, with my sad sobby words. Anyway, I think most of us at one point in our lives experienced giving the best of our hearts to people who can’t do the same for us.
And It is such a shame when you have so much love to give but the person you intend to give it to just couldn’t take it. But that’s how love works, you may never know if your love will ever be reciprocated. That’s what’s beautiful about it, the elements of mystery and surprise.
Loving is not a walk in the park especially if the object of affection does not love you in return.
But True love means not asking for something in return. It does not involve rushing to be in a relationship and it isn’t even about just finding someone to get you through your cold nights!
True love is about learning how to wait patiently for the perfect timing and for the person perfect for you. It’s about giving and giving even more. It’s about knowing that you found that one person that you want to spend you whole life with and making him feel always loved and wanted. Its about respecting yourself and the other person.
How I wish, we could all just find true love and live happily every after, just like in the movies.
But then Again, this is real life and life is what we make it and love like you have never been hurt before.