Another long deep breath
for a closing argument.
Another awkward silence
in the heated moment.
Afraid to say something wrong.
She said nothing at all.
He’s been waiting for so long.
Her answers are stalled.
He wants to talk about it.
She doesn’t want to argue.
He tried to say what’s in his head.
She believed it was untrue.
Doubt fills up her heart.
He’s slowly drifting away.
He was looking for a reason
for him to even stay.
She just let it all passed by.
She think It’ll be over soon.
He caught another’s eye.
The attention made him swoon.
While she pretended everything will be alright.
though that’s not what her heart and mind tells.
He decided to spend the night,
Not with her but with somebody else.
Looking inside and wanting to belong,
Curled up in bed with heart beating strong.
Closed lip sighs, another pain locked away.
Vows you want to make but it was never the right day.
Taking a leap, you have been waiting for so long.
Immense in a state where heart is breaking in the sun.
Opened up yourself and wishing him to stay.
But he was never in love, he just cared anyway.
You tell yourself it’s okay. You tried to give your best shot.
But you were never okay with the fact that he loves you not.
You chose to put on a face. So determined, so willing, so brave.
But unraveling the mask, you are trapped in loneliness’s grave.
Crackling sounds of thunder is not helping your case.
Falling is a kind of blunder and believing is such a waste.
You were on the brink of giving up the love you always want.
But just before you were to cut ends loose, he extended his hand.
He reached to you and suddenly you feel no reason to be sad.
Your heart skipped a beat and you swore it was the best day you ever had.
Clouding up in thoughts
while mind speaks frightened words.
Whispers in the wind
but messages remain unheard.
The solitude of a man,
peaceful as the break of dawn.
In a solitary room,
where love was never on.
He has nowhere to go.
No one to turn to for advice.
He is on his own.
Watching himself demise.
Alone in the silence
Left out in the crowd.
With nothing but his thoughts
and the pain screaming loud.
That night that you left,
was the same night that I cried.
That day you were gone,
was the same day I had none.
You turned your back
and I turned away.
You lost your life
but the pain in me stayed.
Those years that passed,
I wonder how I made it through.
You broke my heart
yet you never had a clue.
There are lots of questions,
questions inside my head.
Why did you have to go?
You should have been with us instead.
Then I feel your hand,
pressed against mine.
Finally, I can see you.
and see your face shine.
But when I opened my eyes,
there was no you.
It was only a dream,
but I wished it was true.
You’re in my thoughts
but I’m alone with my doubts
There’s words in your silence
but I can’t figure it out.
You took a deep breath
while I was holding mine.
And all this time I wondered,
how can your eyes be so thine?
I glanced at you,
and now I never looked away.
Even when your not here,
you’re still the highlight of my day.
I wonder if you have someone there..
Do you think she’s the one?
At times when you need someone to be there for you,
Does she stay and hold you hand?
Maybe I just wonder about you most of the time.
I want to know how your day was.
I want to be able say goodnight.
But these things can’t happen
because I am nowhere in your sight.
It makes me wonder what pushed the brilliant author, T.H. White, to write those hauntingly painful words. It makes me want to ask him “Who broke your heart?”.
Well, I guess I will never know why he wrote those words. But I know why I can relate to it. It seems like an arrow was shot directly to my heart. There I go again, with my sad sobby words. Anyway, I think most of us at one point in our lives experienced giving the best of our hearts to people who can’t do the same for us.
And It is such a shame when you have so much love to give but the person you intend to give it to just couldn’t take it. But that’s how love works, you may never know if your love will ever be reciprocated. That’s what’s beautiful about it, the elements of mystery and surprise.
Loving is not a walk in the park especially if the object of affection does not love you in return.
But True love means not asking for something in return. It does not involve rushing to be in a relationship and it isn’t even about just finding someone to get you through your cold nights!
True love is about learning how to wait patiently for the perfect timing and for the person perfect for you. It’s about giving and giving even more. It’s about knowing that you found that one person that you want to spend you whole life with and making him feel always loved and wanted. Its about respecting yourself and the other person.
How I wish, we could all just find true love and live happily every after, just like in the movies.
But then Again, this is real life and life is what we make it and love like you have never been hurt before.
You walked my way yet you passed me by.
I said hello but you never said “hi”.
I wrote you letters, you never wrote me back.
You just didn’t care,that’s a fact.
So this is what it feels like to be ignored…
Surprisingly, not a very good feeling.
When he’s all that you can think of
and to him you have no meaning.
So this is how it feels to be unwanted…
When you’re willing to give him the world
and to him you’re just nothing.
I’d like to think that someday….
It will get better.
I’d like to think that someday you will notice.
But until that day comes,
I’ll just settle with the feeling of being ignored.
while you remain unaware of what you are missing. 🙂