LIke a lovestruck teenager,
I am holding onto you.
But you don’t even know me,
you never had a clue.
About the love I feel,
Or the dreams I have inside.
You don’t even think about me,
yet you’re always in my mind.
Like a lovestruck teenager,
I’m writing letters everyday.
Though I never had the guts to send ’em to you.
But I keep on writing anyway.
About the everything I feel,
And all the love I want to give.
But you were always with someone else.
And my love, you cannot receive.
Still like a lovestruck teenager,
I am not afraid to let you know.
That your smile is my favorite vision.
and I can never let you go.
It is a very dark day today.
The sun barely shed its glow.
The wind is blowing relentlessly.
Like it is telling me something I shouldn’t know.
It is a very cold night tonight.
Weather that is so conducive for sleep.
I have always loved nights like this.
But tonight this coldness is keeping me stiff.
It is a really big world out there.
Seven billion people that are trying to find their ways.
Seven billion souls are still figuring out who they are supposed to be.
Seven billion beings trying to survive every day.
It is such a mystery that in there are seven biliion people in this planet.
Yet one still feels isolated from the everyone else.
All shacked up in the corner, invisble to the world.
Imagine, Seven Billion people, yet she faces the world alone.
Looking inside and wanting to belong,
Curled up in bed with heart beating strong.
Closed lip sighs, another pain locked away.
Vows you want to make but it was never the right day.
Taking a leap, you have been waiting for so long.
Immense in a state where heart is breaking in the sun.
Opened up yourself and wishing him to stay.
But he was never in love, he just cared anyway.
You tell yourself it’s okay. You tried to give your best shot.
But you were never okay with the fact that he loves you not.
You chose to put on a face. So determined, so willing, so brave.
But unraveling the mask, you are trapped in loneliness’s grave.
Crackling sounds of thunder is not helping your case.
Falling is a kind of blunder and believing is such a waste.
You were on the brink of giving up the love you always want.
But just before you were to cut ends loose, he extended his hand.
He reached to you and suddenly you feel no reason to be sad.
Your heart skipped a beat and you swore it was the best day you ever had.
Clouding up in thoughts
while mind speaks frightened words.
Whispers in the wind
but messages remain unheard.
The solitude of a man,
peaceful as the break of dawn.
In a solitary room,
where love was never on.
He has nowhere to go.
No one to turn to for advice.
He is on his own.
Watching himself demise.
Alone in the silence
Left out in the crowd.
With nothing but his thoughts
and the pain screaming loud.
Truth to be told,
I need you to hold.
My Hand, My Heart.
When can we even start?
Truth to be said,
You piled up in my head.
Your smile, Your skin.
My defenses are turning thin.
That’s the truth locked inside of me.
I am already setting it free.
Now that you have it in your hands…
Are you going to tell me, Where I should stand?
I think about how the sound of rain puts me in trance
The glow of the sun as it shines with each glance
The rhythm of the wind as it passes me by
The heartbreaking part when I said goodbye.
Scenic scenes I wish you still could see
The better one you hoped that I would be.
The things I did to make you proud.
Maybe you are still watching up above the clouds.
I think about those times I spent away from you
I can never get that back.
The love you had given me
though at times I lost track
I wished I was there enough for you.
because I know I wasn’t there enough.
I wished I could have given you more.
I wished I made you laugh.
One day, We will all meet up again.
I know you will love as you love me then.
P.S. Missing you Grandma.
That night that you left,
was the same night that I cried.
That day you were gone,
was the same day I had none.
You turned your back
and I turned away.
You lost your life
but the pain in me stayed.
Those years that passed,
I wonder how I made it through.
You broke my heart
yet you never had a clue.
There are lots of questions,
questions inside my head.
Why did you have to go?
You should have been with us instead.
Then I feel your hand,
pressed against mine.
Finally, I can see you.
and see your face shine.
But when I opened my eyes,
there was no you.
It was only a dream,
but I wished it was true.