I opened my eyes to a new morning.
I have nowhere to go but my spirit’s soaring.
No idea about what will happen today.
But I know there’s nothing that can cause dismay.
Good thoughts and nice flutter.
I feel the wind touching my face.
Such a very good feeling.
The air is my saving grace.
I feel most alive now.
With such a youthful drive.
I know life wouldn’t be easy.
But I don’t mind to strive.
I was never really an optimist
but it’s nice to be on for a change.
I don’t want to dwell on the bad
when positivitiy has an endless range.
It’s been quite some time since i last posted something here. I don’t know why but these past few weeks I have had a hard time writing. Trust me, I tried several times to write in the past days, I had few unfinished works that I couldn’t really give a good closing words to.
Maybe it’s the stresses of life, work, and dreams. But I never want to ever lose my ability to string words together. It’s too important for me to give up, It’s one of the few things that made me feel good.
I remember the first time that I didn’t blog for 9 days. I posted my explanation as to why I wasn’t able to write during that period. But its different before, I was so busy and I tired but I knew then I still have the words in my head. But over the last few weeks of my silence, I was worried because I really don’t have the words.
Today I woke up, still not knowing what to write but I remembered the advice that another blogger, a very wise man and friend, told me before. He said “Come back to writing when you are ready.”
And I think I am ready now. So I am writing again. Forgive me if my new future works suck or what not. I am still at lost but I am trying to find the words and hopefully I can. 🙂
Another long deep breath
for a closing argument.
Another awkward silence
in the heated moment.
Afraid to say something wrong.
She said nothing at all.
He’s been waiting for so long.
Her answers are stalled.
He wants to talk about it.
She doesn’t want to argue.
He tried to say what’s in his head.
She believed it was untrue.
Doubt fills up her heart.
He’s slowly drifting away.
He was looking for a reason
for him to even stay.
She just let it all passed by.
She think It’ll be over soon.
He caught another’s eye.
The attention made him swoon.
While she pretended everything will be alright.
though that’s not what her heart and mind tells.
He decided to spend the night,
Not with her but with somebody else.
Small talks and Stolen glances
Hands are tied
But you’re taking chances
Just looking in yet standing outside
smells like another sin.
Stepped a toe out of line
Take your chances, thinking it is fine.
You removed your ring,
Rehearse your lines.
Let the games begin….
He’s playing his cards.
With coolness and suave
She’s taking part, hoping to love.
In the dark. In the night.
Two bodies collide.
She’s playing her heart.
He’s using his mind.
Now He got what he wanted.
He got rid of the heat.
He left her with nothing
but promises he couldn’t keep.
It is a very dark day today.
The sun barely shed its glow.
The wind is blowing relentlessly.
Like it is telling me something I shouldn’t know.
It is a very cold night tonight.
Weather that is so conducive for sleep.
I have always loved nights like this.
But tonight this coldness is keeping me stiff.
It is a really big world out there.
Seven billion people that are trying to find their ways.
Seven billion souls are still figuring out who they are supposed to be.
Seven billion beings trying to survive every day.
It is such a mystery that in there are seven biliion people in this planet.
Yet one still feels isolated from the everyone else.
All shacked up in the corner, invisble to the world.
Imagine, Seven Billion people, yet she faces the world alone.
Disclaimer: I think I already mentioned this in my previous entries in case I haven’t… Let me just clarify. I am not expert ony guys and relationship and I am not even expert on my job so I am not saying that everything written here is scientifically-proven. These are just figments of my mind’s never ending battle to think and analyze the words I hear, the notes I see, and the stories that were relayed to me. I am hoping that this post help those who are experiencing this kind of situation. 🙂
You see I have been hearing and reading about guys who are always STUCK in the FRIEND ZONE. For those of you who aren’t aware of what the FRIEND ZONE means…..
It is some kind of a untangible friendship boundary of some sort that some guys really wanted to cross but they cannot. It happens when a guy likes a girl that he is good friends with and he get stuck up with this friendship wall that he cannot even tell her how he feels and the girl doesn’t even have a clue that he likes her. To her, he is just a good friend that is always there for her and any idea of romance does not even cross her mind. She just never really thinks of him in a romantic way and the guy pretends that he doesn’t think of her in that way as well, but he is only fooling himself. He just stays friends with her though he wanted to be more than that, hence, the friend zone.
In short, the guys in the friend zone are always the “GOOD GUY FRIENDS” but never the ones that the girls fall for.
Here are the reasons that I can think of why guys in the FRIEND ZONE remains in the FRIEND ZONE:
1. You are still in the friend zone because…
YOU ARE TOO AFRAID TO TAKE CHANCES!
Yes. You are too scared that you won’t get the response that you are expecting so you’d rather stay back and watch other guys make their way to her heart. You are always afraid that saying what you really feel because it may ruin your friendship. Hello! Yes, if she doesn’t feel the same way then it might cause a little awkwardness but if you guys are really friends then you guys will find a way back to being better friends. You just have to accept the fact that she just thinks of you as a friend and nothing more. And eventually let your feelings go and then strengthen the friendship even more. But if she likes you back then BINGO!
2. You are still in the FRIEND ZONE because…
YOU TREAT HER LIKE SHE’S ONE OF YOUR GUY FRIENDS.
Just because you want to look cool and you don’t wanther to figure out that you like her, you try your best to treat her like she is one of your bros. Calling her dude, bro, homey, and what not. Telling her about this imaginary girl that you’ve been crushing on. Teaching her the fist pump or secret handshake and all other guys stuff that you do with your boys.
Guess what??? You sure succeeded in hiding your feelings but you also succeeded in helping her cross you out in her romantic meter. Good Job!
3. You are still in the friend zone because…
YOU ALWAYS MAKE YOURSELF AVAILABLE FOR HER!
One call and you’ll immediately drop everything that you are doing just to attend to whatever it is that she needs. She needs someone to help her move the furnitures in her house, you’ll be there. She needs someone to look after her dog, you’ll take care of her dog. She’s having trouble with her project, you’ll volunteer to help her out… Normally, that is a good thing…. IF YOU GUYS ARE ALREADY TOGETHER. But since you guys are not together yet, you should try be a good friend sometimes learn to say no or learn how to say yes without sounding too enthusiatic about it. 🙂 In that way, you seem a little mysterious and a little unpredictable and you’ll raise her interest. REMEMBER THE GOAL IS TO MAKE YOU “HER GUY” first then be her “GO-TO GUY”. Not the other way around. 🙂
4. You are still in the friend zone because…
YOU EVEN TRY TO SET HER UP WITH ANOTHER GUY THOUGH YOUR INSTINCTS ARE TELLING YOU NOT TO.
Being a good friend that you always are, you even try setting her up with your freind that she likes or with a friend of yours who likes her. That is just totally BAT SHIT CRAZY, MEN! That’s a very uncomfortable thing to do so never everdo that! And if you already did then please do not repeat it. Again, Learn how to say no! If you can’t take the sight of her in some other guy’s arms then do not ever try to make that possible!
***There you go! I hope that helps.
In summary, to get yourself out of the FRIEND ZONE!
1. Be a MAN!
2. Summon up all the courage in the world and tell her how you feel. If she says yes then good. If she says no, then even better because now you know that you being in the friend zone is not your fault, that means she just really wants you to there and then just be friend. You will soon find someone who is willing to be your friend and much more willing to be your lover. 🙂
3. If you confess and it didn’t work out, Don’t lose hope. 🙂
Looking inside and wanting to belong,
Curled up in bed with heart beating strong.
Closed lip sighs, another pain locked away.
Vows you want to make but it was never the right day.
Taking a leap, you have been waiting for so long.
Immense in a state where heart is breaking in the sun.
Opened up yourself and wishing him to stay.
But he was never in love, he just cared anyway.
You tell yourself it’s okay. You tried to give your best shot.
But you were never okay with the fact that he loves you not.
You chose to put on a face. So determined, so willing, so brave.
But unraveling the mask, you are trapped in loneliness’s grave.
Crackling sounds of thunder is not helping your case.
Falling is a kind of blunder and believing is such a waste.
You were on the brink of giving up the love you always want.
But just before you were to cut ends loose, he extended his hand.
He reached to you and suddenly you feel no reason to be sad.
Your heart skipped a beat and you swore it was the best day you ever had.
Not just half-awake but wide awake. I have always thought of writing a novel. And for few occasions, I started writing, but halfway through the intro, I always feel that I am not ready. I have no formal training in writng and I always end up doubting myself and thinking that It will be a waste of time. Now I realized that doubting myself is an awful way of wasting time. I should have continued writing those unfinished works. I would have had, give or take two sucky unpublished novels by now but nonetheless I could have used all the experience that I could have gain in order to improve my craft and write something better but I was so scared to fail and be bad at it that I chose not to continue writing.
But I know now that Writing is way too important to give up just like that.
It is time for me to write my first novel and I know it will not be easy.
And maybe I will fail to do so, but what is life without taking risk?
I will write because it makes me feel good and it is something that I want to be good at.And when are passionate about something, you just need not question your abilities and just do it. And if in time, I will fail to finish this novel, It is comforting to know that I tried.
But I am kinda hoping that I will finish it. So I better start writing now. 🙂
I think about how the sound of rain puts me in trance
The glow of the sun as it shines with each glance
The rhythm of the wind as it passes me by
The heartbreaking part when I said goodbye.
Scenic scenes I wish you still could see
The better one you hoped that I would be.
The things I did to make you proud.
Maybe you are still watching up above the clouds.
I think about those times I spent away from you
I can never get that back.
The love you had given me
though at times I lost track
I wished I was there enough for you.
because I know I wasn’t there enough.
I wished I could have given you more.
I wished I made you laugh.
One day, We will all meet up again.
I know you will love as you love me then.
P.S. Missing you Grandma.