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Another long deep breath

for a closing argument.

Another awkward silence

in the heated moment.

Afraid to say something wrong.

She said nothing at all.

He’s been waiting for so long.

Her answers are stalled.

He wants to talk about it.

She doesn’t want to argue.

He tried to say what’s in his head.

She believed it was untrue.

Doubt fills up her heart.

He’s slowly drifting away.

He was looking for a reason

for him to even stay.

She just let it all passed by.

She think It’ll be over soon.

He caught another’s eye.

The attention made him swoon.

While she pretended everything will be alright.

though that’s not what her heart and mind tells.

He decided to spend the night,

Not with her but with somebody else.


To think of times you come and go

in the minds of people you didn’t even know

 The coldness of their piercing looks,

because of the path you knowingly took.

You live a life with nothing left,

but all those guilt that seemed unkempt.

Bottled up regrets that keeps you still,

the life of a man that you were so quick to steal.

You are the cultprit, the witness and the victim.

You gain a little yet you lost your dreams.

Wishing everything can end in a blink of an eye.

You wishing the easiest way to die.

But you were long dead even before you die.

You lost for family and friends that night.

You want it all to end so fast

Because you think in  death, you will be free at last.

PS:

I know this is a really dark poem.

For some reasons, These words came

to me after reading a story of a murderer

who asked for death penalty but

was given life imprisonmennt.


I think about how the sound of rain puts me in trance

The glow of the sun as it shines with each glance

The rhythm of the wind as it passes me by

The heartbreaking part when I said goodbye.

Scenic scenes I wish you still could see

The better one you hoped that I would be.

The things I did to make you proud.

Maybe you are still watching up above the clouds.

I think about those times I spent away from you

I can never get that back.

The love you had given me

though at times I lost track

I wished I was there enough for you.

because I know I wasn’t there enough.

I wished I could have given you more.

I wished I made you laugh.

One day, We will all meet up again.

I know you will love as you love me then.

P.S. Missing you Grandma.

RIP 9/4/1930-8/31/2011


That night that you left,

was the same night that I cried.

That day you were gone,

was  the same day I had none.

You turned your back

and I turned away.

You lost your life

but the pain in me stayed.

Those years that passed,

I wonder how I made it through.

You broke my heart

yet you never had a clue.

There are lots of questions,

questions inside my head.

Why did you have to go?

You should have been with us instead.

Then I feel your hand,

pressed against mine.

Finally, I can see you.

and see your face shine.

But when I opened my eyes,

there was no you.

It was only a dream,

but I wished it was true.


The black and white world is now in vivid colors.

The darkness fades, and whites became vibrant.

I never knew red can be at its reddest

and that grays can turn to blue.

Everything I’m seeing now is better than before.

I look at the stars, who knew it shines brighter the sun?

I feel the wind in my face, who knew it sends shivers in my spine?

This feeling, I’m free-flowing and like everything’s sure.

This World in Vivid colors, I never thought this day would come.

When fears and insecurities all seem to be gone.

When every endings becomes new beginnings.

When you are losing yet you keep on playing.

There’s colors everywhere and it’s because…

I choose to let you go and accept the loss.

Everything’s in place except you.

You didn’t choose me and that’s my cue.

But no matter how many colors there is,

the color of your eyes will always be something that I’d miss.

but there’s nothing I can do..

This world in vivid colors simply means

its my world without you.


She was gone,,.

And no matter how bright the sun shines, 

there’s still this incomprehensible coldness in him.

 

She was gone…

And no matter how high he reached,

he still cannot touch her.

 

She was gone…

And no matter how much effort he exerts,

he still can’t get over her lost.

 

She was gone…

And no matter how hard he works for his all his dreams,

but his dream to have her back again can never come true.

 

Because she was gone.

She was taken away from this life

and she is not coming back.

Only in the glimpse of his past can he see,

the beauty that meant the world to him.

 

He lost his first believer when he lost her.

He lost the propeller of his plane.

He lost his dear mother.

He’s trying to move on.

But I know his smiles will never be the same.

 

 


 

 

And then he was blind because he couldn’t see that

she’s waiting for him to notice her presence.

 

And then he was deaf because he couldn’t 

hear her heart beating faster than usual because of his presence.

 

And then he was mute because he couldn’t

speak the words that she would like to hear him say.

 

And the he was numb because he couldn’t

feel that hurt that she’s feeling.

 

And then she was gone because she knew that no matter how

hard she tries she’ll never be the person that he yearns for.