It is a very dark day today.
The sun barely shed its glow.
The wind is blowing relentlessly.
Like it is telling me something I shouldn’t know.
It is a very cold night tonight.
Weather that is so conducive for sleep.
I have always loved nights like this.
But tonight this coldness is keeping me stiff.
It is a really big world out there.
Seven billion people that are trying to find their ways.
Seven billion souls are still figuring out who they are supposed to be.
Seven billion beings trying to survive every day.
It is such a mystery that in there are seven biliion people in this planet.
Yet one still feels isolated from the everyone else.
All shacked up in the corner, invisble to the world.
Imagine, Seven Billion people, yet she faces the world alone.
Looking inside and wanting to belong,
Curled up in bed with heart beating strong.
Closed lip sighs, another pain locked away.
Vows you want to make but it was never the right day.
Taking a leap, you have been waiting for so long.
Immense in a state where heart is breaking in the sun.
Opened up yourself and wishing him to stay.
But he was never in love, he just cared anyway.
You tell yourself it’s okay. You tried to give your best shot.
But you were never okay with the fact that he loves you not.
You chose to put on a face. So determined, so willing, so brave.
But unraveling the mask, you are trapped in loneliness’s grave.
Crackling sounds of thunder is not helping your case.
Falling is a kind of blunder and believing is such a waste.
You were on the brink of giving up the love you always want.
But just before you were to cut ends loose, he extended his hand.
He reached to you and suddenly you feel no reason to be sad.
Your heart skipped a beat and you swore it was the best day you ever had.
Clouding up in thoughts
while mind speaks frightened words.
Whispers in the wind
but messages remain unheard.
The solitude of a man,
peaceful as the break of dawn.
In a solitary room,
where love was never on.
He has nowhere to go.
No one to turn to for advice.
He is on his own.
Watching himself demise.
Alone in the silence
Left out in the crowd.
With nothing but his thoughts
and the pain screaming loud.
That night that you left,
was the same night that I cried.
That day you were gone,
was the same day I had none.
You turned your back
and I turned away.
You lost your life
but the pain in me stayed.
Those years that passed,
I wonder how I made it through.
You broke my heart
yet you never had a clue.
There are lots of questions,
questions inside my head.
Why did you have to go?
You should have been with us instead.
Then I feel your hand,
pressed against mine.
Finally, I can see you.
and see your face shine.
But when I opened my eyes,
there was no you.
It was only a dream,
but I wished it was true.
It makes me wonder what pushed the brilliant author, T.H. White, to write those hauntingly painful words. It makes me want to ask him “Who broke your heart?”.
Well, I guess I will never know why he wrote those words. But I know why I can relate to it. It seems like an arrow was shot directly to my heart. There I go again, with my sad sobby words. Anyway, I think most of us at one point in our lives experienced giving the best of our hearts to people who can’t do the same for us.
And It is such a shame when you have so much love to give but the person you intend to give it to just couldn’t take it. But that’s how love works, you may never know if your love will ever be reciprocated. That’s what’s beautiful about it, the elements of mystery and surprise.
Loving is not a walk in the park especially if the object of affection does not love you in return.
But True love means not asking for something in return. It does not involve rushing to be in a relationship and it isn’t even about just finding someone to get you through your cold nights!
True love is about learning how to wait patiently for the perfect timing and for the person perfect for you. It’s about giving and giving even more. It’s about knowing that you found that one person that you want to spend you whole life with and making him feel always loved and wanted. Its about respecting yourself and the other person.
How I wish, we could all just find true love and live happily every after, just like in the movies.
But then Again, this is real life and life is what we make it and love like you have never been hurt before.
The black and white world is now in vivid colors.
The darkness fades, and whites became vibrant.
I never knew red can be at its reddest
and that grays can turn to blue.
Everything I’m seeing now is better than before.
I look at the stars, who knew it shines brighter the sun?
I feel the wind in my face, who knew it sends shivers in my spine?
This feeling, I’m free-flowing and like everything’s sure.
This World in Vivid colors, I never thought this day would come.
When fears and insecurities all seem to be gone.
When every endings becomes new beginnings.
When you are losing yet you keep on playing.
There’s colors everywhere and it’s because…
I choose to let you go and accept the loss.
Everything’s in place except you.
You didn’t choose me and that’s my cue.
But no matter how many colors there is,
the color of your eyes will always be something that I’d miss.
but there’s nothing I can do..
This world in vivid colors simply means
its my world without you.